I’ve divided this chapter into 3 parts because it is so long. Here is the first part.
It was at that moment; I began a new season of my life. A season of life that God had been preparing me for 2 weeks prior to finding my mom. Just like a gardener plants his seeds, God planted a seed in my mind. He told me that it was finally time for me to tell my story. Just like a boulder, I can be stubborn and not listen to my Father. So, he sent to me people to tell me, “You need to write a book and share your story.”
Even so, it took me a while to write my story.
There is no princess in my story. Instead there is a monster who tried to tear me down. It was a Randall from Monsters Inc. not a cute and loveable Sully. Satan filled that monster’s heart. The only way I defeated him was through the word of God.
As I heal through these words I am typing, I am beginning to sort through the emotions and tattered memories. Those memories make me who I am today – a robust and resilient person who has made a legacy for future generations.
This book is meant to be healing for me as I sort through all the emotions and tattered memories of my childhood and young adulthood. Those emotions and memories make me who I am today, which is a robust and resilient person who has hopefully made a legacy that will be carried on long after I am gone.
One of my absolute favorite musical artists is P!nk. I’ve been to two of her concerts and have fallen more in love with her music. The album she released in April 2019 has many songs that speak to my soul, whether it is present-day Traci or past me. One of those songs is called “My Attic” one of the lyrics is “Hoping, one day; you’ll find them all – ‘Cause I wanna let you see inside my attic.”
She is talking about her thoughts, feelings, and memories that are stored in her memories. So, welcome to my attic. Just so you know, my attic is full of hurt feelings and tattered memories. I have decided that it’s time for me to show people what is in my attic. My intention is that my attic will help you know that you can overcome adversity.
Throughout the book, I’m going to make references to the Bible, scripture, and music. Beware some of what I’m going to write is going to be challenging to read, but it’s essential to share it so that it can help other people.
I want to welcome you to my attic!
As I am writing these words, I’m allowing them to float away on the river of life. I’m going with the current while they are still in the riptide. They’ll always be there but I’ll move further away from them. Just like seasons change, so do the seasons of life.
In him and through faith in him, we may approach God with freedom and confidence.
Ephesians 3:12
Traci, I am so sorry that you will always have the memory of finding your mother in the way she died. I have found When we share the messy parts of our lives, it becomes a message God can use to heal and comfort others. You are not alone. You are loved not only by God but me also. Thank you for being such a blessing to me.
Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.
1 Peter 5:8 NLT
But I think he forgets you are a child of the King of Kings!